It's Only Love

It's only love and that is all,
Why should I feel the way I do?
It's only love, and that is all,
But it's so hard loving you.

It's only love...why do we tend to shy from it when we feel it?  Are we all just scared to mess up the good in love? Hahaha!

Letting Go and Holding On

In order to get a hold of yourself, you must lose something that has become a big part of your life.

In my case, I am deactivating my membership in a social network.  I am not saying I will be gone for good, I will be back but letting go of it for now will be one of the best things I'll ever make this year.

It is time I must regain who I really am and get hold of what I could be without having to rely on technology.  I still use my gadgets and stuff, but letting go of that social network is like being a hermit confined in a cave.  I have been struggling with my daily attunement with the Universe because I always make up insane excuses, including spending so much of my time idling away playing games and checking out friends' lives and whereabouts through the network.  It's time to take a break!

I mentioned last July that I will be fasting, and spend lesser time in front of the computer and I haven't kept my word. Now I am doing this because the time feels so right!  There could be no mistakes!

I have never felt so free, not until I've hit the deactivate link!  I can't express the joy I have felt when I did that....

I do hope this will last... I will know when it's time to go back....

Infinite Sadness

Sitting still was NEVER enough... and if you're giving in, then you're giving up... cause in your sad machines... you'll forever stay...

Here Is No Why

-Smashing Pumpkins

Life Is A Profound Love Story

"Life is a profound love story...."

I heard that line in one of the videos posted in the Love Is and The Family of Jacob facebook group.  Piamaria, the one who claimed me a couple of years ago as her Soul Sister shared one of their vids and I got curious, headed to the group page and clicked on every video that had an interesting title or thumbnail.

Life is indeed a profound love story and now that August is finally here, I have to make way for changes.  I want to make more positive changes this month... I am optimistic about how things will turn out...

This is for real... When I opened Love's Book of Answers on Friday, the page said: "It is for real."  If it is indeed for real, then I am happy for now and hopefully until the end of this lifetime.

New month, new outlook... I love You!  Now I will sleep with a huge smile on my face... 

Good morning August... :D

1 August 2010

Yes? No? Whaaaat???

A 'No' uttered from deepest conviction is better and greater than a 'Yes' merely uttered to please, or what is worse, to avoid trouble." 

-- Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi

So what now? I am beginning to sink into quicksand...

It's almost 3am... better hit the sack...

31 July 2010

Tears On My Keyboard

"Writing is easy: just stare at the screen of your computer until a tear drops on your keyboard."

 - Paulo Coelho

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Angela received the The Royal Order card using the Path of the Soul Destiny Card Deck

We play important roles in each other's lives. We aid each other on the journey to Oneness and Ascension. Before we can play an integral role in helping others, we have to first take care of ourselves. The Royal Order is about keeping within the Divine Order of life. Be sure to care for this physical vessel that is you. It needs to run and function properly. You have an important part to play in the lives of others, so make sure you take care of yourself first.

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Such a melodramatic evening...why oh why?  

Phone ringing... I don't feel like talking to anybody right now... I'm crying...

I made a vow not to stay too long in front of the computer.  I better start the suggested fasting and I think it doesn't mean food fasting only but also fasting in other aspects of my organized mess....  Cut down computer time, cut down self-loathing, cut down procrastinating, cut down on other shit and start contemplating on simpler yet more important things.  The things that matter most need not be grand... 

Pride...vanity...what are you going to with them? Do they matter that much?  You know better... Humility is the purpose of your return...Learn...

It's ok...let those tears stream down your face...you can't defy gravity easily... You are human after all...

30 July 2010

Headlights

We're all gonna die tomorrow
Waiting around for your friends to come down and join you
They'll be knocking on their windows
They'll be turning off the lights in their living rooms

Don't you want to say goodbye?
Don't you want to say goodbye?
Don't you want to say goodbye to the ones you love?

People running round in circles
Telephones ring and they'll sing of no tomorrow
They'll be saying what they meant to
They'll be trying to forget what they didn't do

Don't you want to say you tried?
Don't you want to say you tried?
Don't you want to say you tried to the ones you love? 

-- Headlights, Love Song for Buddy

29 July 2010