Evolution Revolution

Evolution. Evolution. Evolution. It’s just a nine-letter word but it reverberates like it is larger than life because it means so much to so many people. I, for instance, have been wanting to embrace the word, evolve, and improve myself not only in a single field but in every aspect of my life. However, the years of yearning left me relatively empty-handed, nothing much has changed and I wonder if my wanting is not enough to fuel my will to evolve. Am I really in this scheme of things where evolution is a necessity that I should not dismiss or shall I remain a lesser-being, a person with less-evolved skills or perhaps a devolved consciousness? 

Once and for all, what is evolution? My baser faculties would normally refer to a dictionary and find there a most basic definition: ‘evolution is development, progress or advancement’ of a thought, an idea, or an individual most probably. If my faulty memory serves me right, a great Greek philosopher once said that “The only constant thing in this world is change,” and he might then have referred to evolution as something that one can’t stop from happening in the natural scheme of things. If you are a creature of nature, you must go with the flow and grow! But then again, evolution may have a different meaning for every person who encounters it. 

As I have stated earlier, I am still wondering whether or not if my wanting to evolve is enough to move my will to do the necessary changing I must do and progress to become a better individual – a better artist, a better writer, a better student, a better teacher, a better daughter, a better friend, a better lover perhaps, or even just a better inhabitant of this planet. I know I have become redundant with the word BETTER but I do want to become better, and possibly the BEST that I could ever be and not just stagnate and remain a whining woman wallowing in this mediocre state that I am in. I HAVE to evolve. My consciousness MUST EVOLVE. 

I AM a student of life and its myriad of vicissitudes, and I am a student of mysticism as well. Adapting to changes not only in the environment but also within myself has become a constant struggle. My innate stubbornness to accept ideas alien to my own and to reluctantly succumb to the turn of the tides have left me somehow horrible. I am aware that I am resilient and could easily do what needs to be done on the surface but altering what has been rooted deep into my core could be compared to declaring war against an army of a million forces. 

Treading on unfamiliar terrain and going out of one’s comfort zone is something that I need to come to terms to if I really want to become an evolved being. If change is what I must do in order to become the best that I could be, then I would have to prepare myself of the most difficult and dangerous battle of my life – I have to declare war against my self, the ego, so that my true Self, the part of me that is a Spark of God, would be able to set itself ablaze and take me out from the darkness I have been lurking into for the past three decades. 

I believe in the Law of Karma which, if explained scientifically is akin to the Law of Cause and Effect or Newton’s Law of Action and Reaction. What we sow is what we really reap whether we have sown them earlier in this life or from a previous life. I believe that whatever I have done in the past are causing the effects that I am experiencing right now BUT I know I must experience all of these in order for me to realize that there is still hope for my soul. One day, I hope that day is soon, I will be able to show the world that I have evolved and become the best that I could be. I know I will be granted that privilege because I want to amplify my consciousness not only for myself but for this world which I want to serve for the rest of my life on this plane. If it pleases the Cosmic, it is done!