Invincible?

There are no contests in the Art of Peace. A true warrior is invincible because he or she contests with nothing. Defeat means to defeat the mind of contention that we harbor within. 

-Morihei Ueshiba

Invincibility could be just a droll imagination for souls that thrive on bloated egos.  True, we are Immortal and Invincible in more ways than one yet there are certain points in life when we just throw in the towel and literally walk on a highway, silently wishing a speeding vehicle will run us over so that we could instantly meet our demise.  I did that the other day, walked on the road and was at my wits end but it seems the highway crammed with air polluting automobiles was a lonely highway to search for Death.

Death is the easiest escape from this mundane existence.  When one tires of this life, death is the only way out from here.  However, for somebody who has been seeking the Light of Truth for almost three decades, lunar phases and hormones could be way too much too handle.  Though there were no real intentions of dying, the wonder of cheating death was such a major turn-on and had become a motivation to try out those so-called powers of Invincibility.  I guess my stupid non-plan backfired because an easy death would mean that this life had been indeed lived in vain.

Illusions, ignorance, suffering, and all the problems in the world could only be dispelled when one achieves Inner Peace.  It's so easy to write that down but it's so difficult to grasp and apply.  I know I had been quite lousy with my practices and I am not proud to say that I always have a relapse whenever I stumble, but I admit to myself that I do try to be humble and admit that I am not perfect, and I do make mistakes.  

I have always had doubts on a person's invincibility, more often my own.  I am aware that the body could deteriorate and all but I have always wondered about the invincible capabilities of the Soul.  They said we are all made of Light, but the darkness plays a really gruesome role while we try to reach that state when we shine the brightest.  When darkness seeps in, our hopes and dreams of becoming invincible could start to fade and blend into the void that leaves us in an unprecedented state of vacuum.

Most great teachers and even that 3D animated red panda believe that Inner Peace is the key to breaking all the bonds of darkness and weariness and could even lead to moksha or liberation.  Try as hard as I might, I still have a hard time grasping what is really meant by that term.  I believe I am invincible but there are just days that I flop like a tree that has gone limp.

I want to achieve that perpetual state of peace.  Pax profundis is the goal...  When I will reach that state, I will be truly Invincible!