Rationalizing Our Mistakes

Rationalization is a process of not perceiving reality, but of attempting to make reality fit one's emotions.
- Ayn Rand

Sometimes, we make choices in life and when the fruits of our choices do not meet our expectations, we tend to make up excuses and find reasons not to admit that we unavoidably made mistakes.  Most of us would deny that our choices, when made haphazardly, bring about results which we are never prepared for.  Sometimes, some of us do not want to acknowledge our short estimations as mistakes and just accept the lessons brought about from the experience; instead, we squeeze all our mental capacities to make our realities fit into what other people or society expects of us.  

Rationalization is one of the best defense mechanisms one could hang on to whenever a supposedly intelligent human being is faced with the Reality that unsavory events in the past could have been avoidable if a better choice was made.  The thing is, most of us, when we are faced with situations point blanc, we rely on our impulsiveness instead of our intuition.  There are some of us who are truly intuitive beings (having tapped into the Source at a higher level), yet there are some who believe they are and blatantly tell the world about it.  As far as I have gathered, most (if not all) of those whose intuition levels have reached Godly heights, they do not mention anything about their attainment or if they do, they shroud them with veils which only those who could understand would be able to decipher.  

Anyway, why is rationalization easier to do than to accept one's decisions as mistakes?  Some people say that "there are no mistakes, just lessons"; I guess some of us could never totally accept our mishaps as the lessons they ought to be and we would want to reason out why we made those choices, why we acted that way, so on and so forth.  When we could not even put up a rational excuse, we would insist that we did the right thing because we followed the voice in our hearts.  True enough, we could never be at peace if we don't follow the tiny whispers of our hearts, it would be like betraying our Souls but if we're never really humble enough to admit that yes, this journey we call human existence is indeed a world of trial and error, we would really do what Ayn Rand said: make reality fit one's emotions.

I am not perfect and I do rationalize some of my actions.  However, there are some things I have learned in this bumpy ride through Life: one must learn to surrender one's defense mechanisms and just accept that at one time in one's life, one made wrong decisions and has learned from them.

If You Have Nothing Good To Say

Hello Blog. Your 3rd anniversary is fast approaching and as you sift through your contents you will realize that many things have transpired, many emotions have been expressed in words, and many things have been left unwritten (and unspoken). Haven't you wondered why, oh Blog? 

Blog, you know fairly well that I am more apt in expressing myself through writing than to speaking out the things on my mind. However, I have realized over the course of this journey that even the written word has power and vibrations which could cause ripples on a still lake and I am not that enthusiastic to cause a tsunami.  If I just kept on writing and posting what I had and still have on my mind, that would have revealed too much about myself which I am not ready to reveal to the mundane.  It may also cause discomfort and God knows what else that could make this plane less peaceful.

Many a time and oft I have encountered these words:

If you have nothing good (or positive) to say, keep your mouth closed.

I know, I don't write with the mouth but with my fingers and fingertips but it is basically the same.  I believe I have a better version though!

If you have nothing good to say or write during certain moments, better shut down your brain..

Crazy, but I believe it's the best solution to possibly chaotic impulsiveness.

Months ago, we had been warned by V to be mindful of what we say or post in 3d world or online.  WHY?  The reason is this: whatever we say or do, though it may be nothing or normal to us, it may mean something else to others. It is true.  Whatever we say or do may just be hilarious or serious but they could be misinterpreted by others.

I have struggled for many months on how to be mindful and I am not so sure if I have made any improvement.  I would like to think so but I believe I need to work more on it.

Being mindful does not necessarily mean repressing what we really think and feel about some things and situations but I believe that it is RESPONSIBLY EXPRESSING OURSELVES.  I have known far too many people who rely on impulse and say or post whatever they want to say to EXPRESS themselves freely and not minding to hurt other people directly or indirectly.  I believe I have done such things too and gave in to certain impulses but as I have said, I want to train my mind to be more mindful.  If we don't start training ourselves NOW, when should we do it?  Should we do it when our attention is called again to become mindful? Should we do so when we have hurt more people unknowingly?  Should we do it when we realize that we have been thinking erroneously for the longest time?  WHEN???

The past few weeks had been a whirlwind of flying daggers in guise of words.  Words which heal, defend, offend, hurt, etc etc.  I would rather receive cuts of those daggers straight to my face but there are cunning linguists who would rather throw the blades in various directions least expected say, the back.  To retaliate would defeat the purpose of learning mindful thinking and expressing of the egoic self and the true Self.  To keep silent does not indicate surrender to words said but express courage to face the sharpness of the blades.

Though I speak in vague and incomprehensible tongues of messengers, I would like to shroud my words for now.  

Since I have nothing good to say, I would just shut up and stop typing.

Until then.