Yes? No? Whaaaat???

A 'No' uttered from deepest conviction is better and greater than a 'Yes' merely uttered to please, or what is worse, to avoid trouble." 

-- Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi

So what now? I am beginning to sink into quicksand...

It's almost 3am... better hit the sack...

31 July 2010

Tears On My Keyboard

"Writing is easy: just stare at the screen of your computer until a tear drops on your keyboard."

 - Paulo Coelho

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Angela received the The Royal Order card using the Path of the Soul Destiny Card Deck

We play important roles in each other's lives. We aid each other on the journey to Oneness and Ascension. Before we can play an integral role in helping others, we have to first take care of ourselves. The Royal Order is about keeping within the Divine Order of life. Be sure to care for this physical vessel that is you. It needs to run and function properly. You have an important part to play in the lives of others, so make sure you take care of yourself first.

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Such a melodramatic evening...why oh why?  

Phone ringing... I don't feel like talking to anybody right now... I'm crying...

I made a vow not to stay too long in front of the computer.  I better start the suggested fasting and I think it doesn't mean food fasting only but also fasting in other aspects of my organized mess....  Cut down computer time, cut down self-loathing, cut down procrastinating, cut down on other shit and start contemplating on simpler yet more important things.  The things that matter most need not be grand... 

Pride...vanity...what are you going to with them? Do they matter that much?  You know better... Humility is the purpose of your return...Learn...

It's ok...let those tears stream down your face...you can't defy gravity easily... You are human after all...

30 July 2010

Headlights

We're all gonna die tomorrow
Waiting around for your friends to come down and join you
They'll be knocking on their windows
They'll be turning off the lights in their living rooms

Don't you want to say goodbye?
Don't you want to say goodbye?
Don't you want to say goodbye to the ones you love?

People running round in circles
Telephones ring and they'll sing of no tomorrow
They'll be saying what they meant to
They'll be trying to forget what they didn't do

Don't you want to say you tried?
Don't you want to say you tried?
Don't you want to say you tried to the ones you love? 

-- Headlights, Love Song for Buddy

29 July 2010

Monkhood?

A monk? Who?  Me??? I doubt that I am made to play that part in this lifetime...

A lot of people had been asking me if and when I am going to become a monk and that makes me wonder if I seem like I am meant to become one.  I am not worthy... And if I would have to rely on the visions I have had since I was a kid, I will not be able to fulfill them if I were to become a monk...

I am not worthy...

28 July 2010

Love

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. 
- Lao Tzu





Love is God...God is Love...God give me courage and strength...










18 July 2010

I Am I

You do your thing and I do mine.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations
And you are not in this world to live up to mine

I am I and You are You,
And if we should meet it will be beautiful,
And if not, it cannot be helped.


This is the real deal... quoted from Frederick "Fritz" Perls - the pioneer of Gestalt Therapy

“I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.”