God IS In You

"If there is common ground among the world's religions, it is to be found in mysticism.

Adventurers of the spirit, the mystics have dared to push beyond the boundaries of orthodox tradition to pursue a common goal:

The direct experience of God.

Mystics long to see God, to know God, to be one with God—not in the hereafter, but in the here and now.

And they teach that while you may seek him in temple or mosque or church, you must ultimately find him in your own heart."

- Elizabeth Clare Prophet

No Fear: The Inner Self

The Inner Self?  Who or what is that you might ask.  It is who you really are, that part of you that lies beneath all the trappings that this mundane world has turned you into.  

For almost three decades, I was like a machine that only moved whenever fueled with something worth moving for.  I disregarded that I have my Inner Self lurking in the deep recesses of my body which I have forgotten is the dwelling place, the temple of the Soul, the Atman.

In the past few months, many things have unfolded in C's awakening and her Inner Self was in constant communication with her.  I have wondered when I was going to have my turn and wake up my Inner Self, the God Within me, and know more about what I really must know.

The last three months had been significant in the sense that I have received all these revelations and had realizations that I have never thought would cross my mind.  One time when we were meditating as a group, I had the weirdest experience that I have never thought would happen too soon.  While radiating positive energy to the Universe, my hands started moving.  

Having learned from C that the initial manifestations of the IS could be very surprising, I wanted to make the movements stop because I didn't want the others to take notice of it and they might have misconceptions about it.  I wanted to stop but it seemed like I can't control it, so I just let things be and observed what's going to happen.  

As if in a trance, my hands moved gracefully and seemed to have their own wisdom that I never expected.  The right hand made weird movements, it seemed to draw circles and stuff.  The hand then stopped, with the palm outwards, as if posed for blessing.  Then the left hand started moving and even reached out and almost touched the person sitting next to me.  After all those movements, it rested on my lap, palm upwards, looked like begging for alms.

It never occured to me until about a month later when I saw a photo of a statue depicting Buddha in the same pose.  I was amazed but I never sought what that pose meant until a few days ago.  I found out that the pose my hands were doing was a Mudra - a symbolic gesture in Hinduism and Buddhism.  The particular mudra that my Inner Self performed with my hands was the Abhaya mudra.

The Abhaya Mudra is believed to be the gesture that the historical Buddha immediately made after achieving enlightenment. It symbolizes fearlessness as well as protection and peace.  I guess my Inner Self only showed me that I should never be afraid of the changes, challenges and circumstances that are coming my way.  

The other day my obsessive mouse clicking on links led me to a website about the Inner Self.  

I AM that inner self of you that you cannot see (or don't want to acknowledge) because of your boundaries, the barriers placed to the concept of your infinity and innocence, the pre-conceived ideas of who you think you are, the illusion you think you are that has been built up by your pre-conditioning, your genetic heritage and with everything that has happened to you since the time of your conception in your mother's womb.  See the rest in this website.

The Inner Self is God Within You. God is in every one of us through our Inner Self and to this God Within you give your salutations to when you say Namaste to people you meet.  

Namaste!

The Sun Shines on Everyone

Earlier I was searching for the meanings of some mudras and from clicking one link to another, I came across this video on YouTube.  Snatam Kaur sounds like an angel and this song just made me smile and shed tears of joy at the same time.  The message is simple; it speaks of peace, love, unity and equality.  

Why is it not so easy to understand that we are all ONE when it is quite obvious that the sun shines on everyone?

Color Splash!

I love face and body painting!  These are just some of my stuff... I like painting myself and the people I call "my willing victims" hahahaha!  More to come soon!

Happy Birthday My Soul

7 Nov 2009 is one of those dates that are significant in my life.  The past year went by with a blur and even though I felt like I never belonged, the Light led me to where I am now.

I am still on my journey, still searching for the Light I have been yearning for since I entered this realm in this lifetime.  I am still not perfect but I am striving to be less flawed.  I am still striving to have that diamond-tough soul with a better and more pliable heart that glimmers brighter than the Sun.  I am still lost for words when something amazing happens, amazing in the sense that I know in my own little way, I have caused it to happen because the Universe conspired with me.

I am striving daily to become a better person who knows how to live and love and spread the light to those who are sad, cold, and bitter in the dark.  I had been that soul, I have evolved a bit, and I want to evolve more.

Last year, I found the path that helped me get to where I am now.  I have never expected to strip away some of those layers I need to get rid off since they are no use of but only excess baggage.  I can say that the liberation is unfolding, and I am starting to find what I have been looking for.

Thank you Universe.

I am typing this post with my eyes closed....  I made only three errors!  I guess trusting one's intuition is better than trusting one's eyes alone...

I love You....

Twin Flame Blessing

Are you aware that there is another soul, your twin soul, the other half of the flame where you split from?

Yes?  No? Maybe???

You may not believe in the nature of souls or reincarnation or other of these stuff but if something or someone comes into your life and even though if you have just met, you will be surprised that you seem like you are looking into a mirror and see a reflection of yourself!  You may not see the physical resemblance but you know that the soul that animates that body reflects your own soul....

A lot of people have been seeking for The One to come into their lives, sweep them off their feet, and live happily ever after.  Some may have been lucky but others are not.  They say chances are quite slim for Twin Flames to meet in a lifetime, unless it is really time for them to meet and do what they must do.

For now, they say it is best to bless your Twin Flame even if you are not together....

Turn, Turn, Turn...

Chimerical Harmony

30x30 in

Oil on Canvas

The Animus and Anima playing each other...pretending to be in harmony when in fact they are just going around in circles...

It's Only Love

It's only love and that is all,
Why should I feel the way I do?
It's only love, and that is all,
But it's so hard loving you.

It's only love...why do we tend to shy from it when we feel it?  Are we all just scared to mess up the good in love? Hahaha!

Letting Go and Holding On

In order to get a hold of yourself, you must lose something that has become a big part of your life.

In my case, I am deactivating my membership in a social network.  I am not saying I will be gone for good, I will be back but letting go of it for now will be one of the best things I'll ever make this year.

It is time I must regain who I really am and get hold of what I could be without having to rely on technology.  I still use my gadgets and stuff, but letting go of that social network is like being a hermit confined in a cave.  I have been struggling with my daily attunement with the Universe because I always make up insane excuses, including spending so much of my time idling away playing games and checking out friends' lives and whereabouts through the network.  It's time to take a break!

I mentioned last July that I will be fasting, and spend lesser time in front of the computer and I haven't kept my word. Now I am doing this because the time feels so right!  There could be no mistakes!

I have never felt so free, not until I've hit the deactivate link!  I can't express the joy I have felt when I did that....

I do hope this will last... I will know when it's time to go back....

Infinite Sadness

Sitting still was NEVER enough... and if you're giving in, then you're giving up... cause in your sad machines... you'll forever stay...

Here Is No Why

-Smashing Pumpkins

Life Is A Profound Love Story

"Life is a profound love story...."

I heard that line in one of the videos posted in the Love Is and The Family of Jacob facebook group.  Piamaria, the one who claimed me a couple of years ago as her Soul Sister shared one of their vids and I got curious, headed to the group page and clicked on every video that had an interesting title or thumbnail.

Life is indeed a profound love story and now that August is finally here, I have to make way for changes.  I want to make more positive changes this month... I am optimistic about how things will turn out...

This is for real... When I opened Love's Book of Answers on Friday, the page said: "It is for real."  If it is indeed for real, then I am happy for now and hopefully until the end of this lifetime.

New month, new outlook... I love You!  Now I will sleep with a huge smile on my face... 

Good morning August... :D

1 August 2010

Yes? No? Whaaaat???

A 'No' uttered from deepest conviction is better and greater than a 'Yes' merely uttered to please, or what is worse, to avoid trouble." 

-- Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi

So what now? I am beginning to sink into quicksand...

It's almost 3am... better hit the sack...

31 July 2010

Tears On My Keyboard

"Writing is easy: just stare at the screen of your computer until a tear drops on your keyboard."

 - Paulo Coelho

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Angela received the The Royal Order card using the Path of the Soul Destiny Card Deck

We play important roles in each other's lives. We aid each other on the journey to Oneness and Ascension. Before we can play an integral role in helping others, we have to first take care of ourselves. The Royal Order is about keeping within the Divine Order of life. Be sure to care for this physical vessel that is you. It needs to run and function properly. You have an important part to play in the lives of others, so make sure you take care of yourself first.

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Such a melodramatic evening...why oh why?  

Phone ringing... I don't feel like talking to anybody right now... I'm crying...

I made a vow not to stay too long in front of the computer.  I better start the suggested fasting and I think it doesn't mean food fasting only but also fasting in other aspects of my organized mess....  Cut down computer time, cut down self-loathing, cut down procrastinating, cut down on other shit and start contemplating on simpler yet more important things.  The things that matter most need not be grand... 

Pride...vanity...what are you going to with them? Do they matter that much?  You know better... Humility is the purpose of your return...Learn...

It's ok...let those tears stream down your face...you can't defy gravity easily... You are human after all...

30 July 2010

Headlights

We're all gonna die tomorrow
Waiting around for your friends to come down and join you
They'll be knocking on their windows
They'll be turning off the lights in their living rooms

Don't you want to say goodbye?
Don't you want to say goodbye?
Don't you want to say goodbye to the ones you love?

People running round in circles
Telephones ring and they'll sing of no tomorrow
They'll be saying what they meant to
They'll be trying to forget what they didn't do

Don't you want to say you tried?
Don't you want to say you tried?
Don't you want to say you tried to the ones you love? 

-- Headlights, Love Song for Buddy

29 July 2010

Monkhood?

A monk? Who?  Me??? I doubt that I am made to play that part in this lifetime...

A lot of people had been asking me if and when I am going to become a monk and that makes me wonder if I seem like I am meant to become one.  I am not worthy... And if I would have to rely on the visions I have had since I was a kid, I will not be able to fulfill them if I were to become a monk...

I am not worthy...

28 July 2010

Love

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. 
- Lao Tzu





Love is God...God is Love...God give me courage and strength...










18 July 2010

I Am I

You do your thing and I do mine.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations
And you are not in this world to live up to mine

I am I and You are You,
And if we should meet it will be beautiful,
And if not, it cannot be helped.


This is the real deal... quoted from Frederick "Fritz" Perls - the pioneer of Gestalt Therapy

“I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.”

And Now, There Are Three

I am now a member of the three orders... Jai Ra! So Mote It Be! Cro Maat!





24 June 2010

We Are All Connected

We are all connected... You may believe it or not but you can't deny that every move you make has an effect in The Universe. 


I came across these lines from two memorable people... I don't know if you will acknowledge what they said but I do.

The earth does not belong to man. Man belongs to the earth. All things are connected like the blood that unites one family. Man did not weave the web of life. He is merely a strand in it. Whatever he does to the web he does to himself.

--allegedly said by Chief Seattle, Chief of the Suquamish Indians



All life is interrelated. We are all caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied to a single garment of destiny. Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. We are made to live together because of the interrelated structure of reality.

--Martin Luther King, Jr., Nobel Laureate and Civil Rights Activist

On Friendship - Kahlil Gibran

Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.


When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay."
And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.


And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.







31 May 2010

Another Soul Sister?

C is one of my newest friends in the orders and I have never expected that we will click right away.  Talked with her and S after the convo and I have never expected that we have so much in common.  Were we related in a previous life?  I am not really sure but something tells me we knew each other well...

Buddha Fest!

Today we celebrate Buddha Fest... I am so overwhelmed and glad...  Tonight had been a good night and I do hope to bring more souls into the light...

May you attain illumination in this lifetime!


27 May 2010

The Third Eye

Open the eye to the soul...  See with the mind's eye...

I got bored and did this to myself... I can't get enough of paint!




24 May 2010

Dissolving Karma : A Few Lessons on Humility

I know I need to learn humility...It's the Karmic lesson I have always failed to learn since time immemorial...

Last week I believe I have been given the privilege to learn what I have been trying to learn for many years. It had been quite painful since it required me to go out from my comfort zone but I do believe everything happened for a reason. I want to make it clear that I have taken on the job because I had signed a contract that I will be paid for my services. However, I do believe that no amount of money could equal the value of the whole experience I had in the outskirts of CDO.



You'll never know the value of a jeepney or habal2x ride unless you have tried living in a place where dirt roads and transportation are main problems...

You'll never know the value of a worn out futon unless you have tried sleeping on hard wood desks joined together to accommodate your worn out body...

You'll never know the value of a simple meal unless you have tried being hungry not only once but many times simply because you can't get your hands on food even if you have money in your pockets...

You'll never know the value of clean air unless you have tried almost passing out due to inhaling second hand cigarette smoke and despicable body fumes...

You'll never know the value of water unless you have tried taking a bath using less than a pail of relatively dirty water...

You'll never know the value of sleep unless you have tried staying up all night guarding something that will help determine your country's future...

You'll never know the value of service unless you have tried working beyond what you are getting paid for and having to spend from your own pocket just to make sure you did your job well...

You'll never know the value of smiles unless you have tried receiving a magnitude of frowns and complaints for reasons you know you are not directly involved...

You'll never know the value of family and friends unless you have tried being in the presence and mercy of complete strangers...

You'll never know the value of your life unless you have witnessed how some people who live in more desperate situations still go on with their lives because they don't have much of a choice....

You'll never know how to be humble unless you find yourself in a humbling experience...

You'll never learn humility unless you swallow your pride...



Pride is a bitter pill one MUST swallow in order to taste the sweetness of humility...







Belated happy birthday to me...






13 May 2010

The Universe Wants YOU!

I have just joined another order yesterday and I never thought that today, on my very first day as a member, I will be installed as an officer!  Everything's in a rush I have never expected this!  Will I belong now?  I don't really care as long as I please the Universe...or the Cosmic... So mote it be...





25 April 2010

Will I Belong Now?

I have met new members of the order and I guess I might start to belong now...  I never expected that I will be installed as an officer... I can't say no... When you are asked to be an officer, it means you have the opportunity to serve the order.  I'm looking forward to better things... I just wish I will be able to do good...

Evil Ways

"you gotta change your evil ways baby..."

Still Searching For Deeper Meaning

It's been a while since my last post and a lot of stuff have happened already.

Had tears in my eyes fore days and made a plea to the heavens for a miracle for my cousin's wife and though she's still not A-ok, the physicians have ruled out cancer.

Continued praying with those purple beads and even though I don't believe everything about it, I can see that my prayers are being heard.

I've finally made my TAJ entry and passed the book to another person.  (More about TAJ in a future post)

I am stilll attending the weekly intensive meditation sessions of The Order and I have had my first Shaktipat experience last weekend.  Last Thursday there was an installation of a member to the higher order and it was said that we wil not have just intensive meditation sessions anymore but weekly convocations.  I'm looking forward to better stuff in the future!

My new client is not demanding and appreciates the work that I've done.  I do hope he'll stay that way.  I'm crossing my fingers tighly...

My relationship with my family is shaky and I could equate it with the feeling of being on a raft in white water.  People say you can't choose your family... However, I do believe there's a BIG reason why I CHOSE to be born in this family in this lifetime.

My friends are still around even though most of whom I do trust are miles away from me.  Friends do not need to be physically near in order to support each other right? heheheh!

I am still not making enough sense.  I am more confused than ever... I dunno which steps I should take...

I am still receiving so many signs I can't pinpoint which ones I should acknowledge first...I don't know which ones are urgent and important.  I have to figure out now....

I am still dreaming of surreal scenes, dead people, unknown people, and The Universe.  My dreams are kinda mysterious but I've made it a point not to make a big fuss about them...



7 March 2009

The Natural Cosmic Laws

I have read a book on Enlightenment and have found this list of natural cosmic laws to be very useful. Not everyone might believe these laws but then if we try to understand deeper, we will know that these laws really do exist.

A lot of people suffer in their present states because they are not aware of or they violate the natural cosmic laws. The natural cosmic laws are immutable and they apply even if you do not believe in them.

Ignorance of the law excuses no one thus, it is essential that we are aware of the natural cosmic laws in order for us to be guided in our activities in this life.



The Natural Cosmic Laws

The first natural cosmic law is the Law of Reincarnation. Various scientific researches including hypnotic regression which have been conducted in different countries have proven that reincarnation is real. This law states that we can live through several incarnations in order to evolve into a better soul and become a master of matter.

The second law is the Law of Karma. This law proclaims that “Whatever you sow, you reap.” It is also known as the Law of Causality or the Law of Action and Reaction. The three types of karma are: Sinchit karma which is accumulated karma of many lives and constitutes the patterns of actions and reactions; Pralavda karma which is the destiny karma and a part of the Sinchit karma that you are paying off or balancing in your present incarnation; and the Kriyaman karma which is what you choos to do at each instant and only appears in milliseconds, giving you the freedom of choice and it offers escape from destiny karma.

The third is the Law of Sharing. This law states that “As you give, so shall you receive.” It also proclaims that whatever you share with the universe, it will come back to you multifold. Learn to share with joy, don’t count how much you have given but concentrate on the joy you felt when you shared. The art of giving is to give from the heart voluntarily.

The fourth law is the Law of Praise. This law is also known as the Law of Positivity. When you meet people in your life, don’t dwell in their negative aspects; always try to look for the beauty in people. By looking at the beauty in people, we change how we look at ourselves.

The fifth is the Law of Thanksgiving. You may be experiencing misfortunes in your life but nevertheless, give thanks for your blessings. Make it a habit to be grateful for what you have and you will change. In order to change your life, the first thing you should do is change yourself.

The sixth law is the Law of Forgiveness. Recall all the people who have hurt you and caused you pain. You might feel hatred and other negative feelings toward those people and you have to change how you feel. You might also react negatively to other people who resemble the people who have hurt you and it will only cause you to be hurt again and again. Changing how you feel towards those people will help change you.

The Message

“I don’t know what to do,” she said exasperatedly as she diverted her eyes to the now empty football field. They always sit on the same bench whenever they watch matches and engage into conversation.
“You do know what to do,” He said.
She turned her head and stared at the wounds on His wrists. The location of the wounds assured her that she’s not with a charlatan. He lifted His right hand, touched her left cheek gently and looked her in the eye, “Remember, the message is Love.”


She woke up from her reverie and wept. Those gold-speckled brown eyes will haunt her forever.

Killing Boredom

Yesterday I got bored from doing "work" and never seemed to accomplish anything at all... Since the previous day I'm on an Avatar high and I seem not to get enough of it.  Inspired by the movie, I TRIED to make myself look like one of the Na'vi...  Here's what I got...

Life

I promised to minimize my crying this year but I couldn't help but shed some lagrimas.

I had a sad vision... The future isn't immutable... I am going to change the course of my fate...

6 January 2010

Free To Decide

I sent in my resignation... Congratulate me! I am free from bondage hahahaha!

Happiness is a warm gun? NO... Happiness is a CHOICE... There's no turning back...


The only way to go is UP! Wish me lots of luck!

4 January 2010

Fresh Start

Happy new year! This is a great year for a fresh start! The turn of the decade is positive, no tears compared to last year's NY... Hahaha! I hope this year I will be a better person with a better job, and a better soul...

1 January 2010